Well, I've taken no action.

I've had some very low days.

It's hard to face, even hard to imagine what this all means.

If she truly is a covert narcissist then the times I felt deeply connected were simply here mirroring me back to me.

I miss that feeling. Like I said, the intermittent high is addictive.

My kids said this is the best summer they've ever had; they've done more, saw friends more, had guests over more and laughed more. The youngest said she hasn't cried or felt crazy since January.

I don't know what my wife is pursuing or what she thinks is better than what was here.

I know her income doesn't support her lifestyle, so she has someone or multiple someones financially supporting her. That I could be replaced that completely, and that she's made zero effort towards reconciliation with the kids, is... Staggering.