That’s great! Having a clean and organized environment even if small is a positive and can fill a need to have a sense of control of one’s own environment.

My concern for you is that you put you self worth in the hands of people who do not deserve to have that kind of control. You must learn to not throw your pearls at the feet of swine.

There are people out there that genuinely don’t care how honest and good you are, they are evil and only care about what benefits them.