Thread: Bad at therapy
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Old Jun 12, 2008, 12:31 AM
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Just wanted to follow up with my medication experience. I was feeling really good all week and thought I might not need to take the Propranolol before my session. However I decided that I would leave the final determination up to how I was feeling an hour before the session. Despite being fairly busy and not thinking much "consciously" about therapy, I noticed that as the day progressed my anxiety starting to increase. My heart rate was elevated, the weird feel in the chest area started, etc. Although I couldn't pinpoint a source it was coming. So I decided not to worry about it and just take the medication an hour before the session. By the time I got to my session I felt a lot calmer and I didn't have that feeling in my chest anymore. I think I had a really good session. I didn't stutter, didn't lose control or get foggy. I made direct eye contact, did squirm a little, but overall I felt SO much better during and now after the session. My head is not exploding with all of the things I wanted to say but didn't. Tonight I journaled about what I SAID not what i SHOULD have said. I don't know if it was a placebo effect or the medication or a combination of the two but it really help me today. I'm glad I tried it.
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