In just a few more days, the third anniversary of my mother's passing will be here... I'm in so much pain. I want to cry, but can't. It seems like every year that passes, it hurts more and more. I'm always wondering what my mom would be thinking of me and the choices I'm making with my life. She passed away right after I graduated from high school. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye either. She passed away while I was passed out in an Ambien haze.
I'm just in a lot of pain right now, and wanted to reach out to all of you who can understand what I'm going through. I don't know what to do to mark this third year without my mother. She was my only support in my family. The last two anniversaries have been spent... let's say "unhelathily". I want to face this day sober for once, but I know I can't do it alone. Things are so messed up right now. 
Thanks for reading,
J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair."
-Bertrand Russell
With love and hope,
<~/J\~>
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