The "not capable of genuine love" thing is hard to face too.

Because it includes the kids.

Sometimes the scope of all this is so overwhelming I start questioning if it's real.

But she poured out the dramatic lines to the kids last year again and again.. "I'm your mother, I will always love you, I would do anything for you."

And when they said, ,"OK. Stop drinking, tell your doctor you drink, go to counselling with us and apologize for the things you've said and done, and quit hanging around with your friends so much and work on things here." Welll..... There were lots of reasons why she couldn't do any of those things

So... Yeah.... Facing that it's not genuine love, for any of us, is pretty overwhelming