Baby steps, baby steps, baby steps. Of course, the ONE night that EVERY movie store in town is out of What About Bob. And I have a 12-hour car ride ahead of me, with the last access to electronics for over a month. Sigh...maybe someone in Sacramento has that movie.

Yes, I am feeling MUCH BETTER today, but this is why I need to go: this is the point in therapy where I always quit, and thought I could handle it on my own, because I felt so much better. WRONG!

I did see my psychologist, the one who I will now be finalizing the APA report on, in the elevator on my way to see my psych nurse today. I told my psych nurse about him, and she called the police. Thank God.

His name is Peter Calvo, PsyD. I hope he gets his license revoked, and I hope I can sue him for enough money to pay my medical bills and pay off my divorce in full, and pay for child support for my daughter for nearly 15 years!!! I'm serious. Actually, split it 50/50 between Peter Calvo and Margo Stephens from Utah. Both need to rot in jail for the rest of their lives, for all I'm concerned. Yes I'm in a bad place right now but Margo could have saved my life 2 years ago if she would have just picked up the god damn phone ONCE and refilled an Effexor prescription ONCE.

She killed my respect for the entire profession, and it took me 2 years to get myself back into therapy, and only 2 visits for Peter Calvo to solidify my opinion.

I know I'm a Borderline, but still. They should rot in jail and never harm another human being.

My gut tells me that Margo may have been involved in the Trolley Square Shooter who was Schizophrenic. If she had ANY CONTACT with that man, I hope she is held criminally and financially responsible for EVERY SINGLE DEATH and EVERY SINGLE CASE OF PTSD that resulted from that tragic event. Her office is very close to Trolley Square, and close to the neighborhood that the boy lived in. I have no idea if he ever called her, but if he did...I'm calling the cops as soon as I can! If anyone else gets this, do it for me.

I don't care if I ruin both their careers. I just read the first amendment and the APA ethics guide front to back. It is not defamation if it is true. Rot in hell, both of you.

And to my lovely psych nurse who I took two years to find and will NEVER let her go, I love you with all my heart, you are the mother I never had and you have saved my life in more ways than you will ever know.

Pinksoil, if you can get in touch with my psych nurse somehow...long story short, she needs you after today. She had three patients in crisis in one day, and I strongly suspect she may be very much like you, but she is very strong. Please see if you can contact her, I will PM you her information. She told me she would be going "on vacation" for a while and could only be accessible by cell phone! I am worried for her, I can NOT lose her!!

I will be at Sierra Tucson for 6-12 weeks.

Thank you all, I need to go.