lol.

when i told my therapist that i loved him... i said something about how i loved other people (like my father) so he wouldn't think i meant sexually. i also prefaced it with 'i don't think in a scary way (for you)'. but... i didn't want to say explicitly 'not in a sexual way' because i didn't want to be the one to raise anything to do with sex! ha!

scary though... i think about / imagine him holding me sometimes... soothing me a rocking me and cuddling me. not in a sexual way... though i imagine that sometimes... but of course i'll never tell him any of that... especially not the latter thing. lol. you are brave :-)