I'm just holding it together. I feel a bit tortured, though. I want to cry every day. I wish people in my life would be kinder to me. I feel like no one cares other than my husband and even he seems not as supportive as I would like. He's been taking one of my medications because he's struggled to get enough of the same medication from his doctor. Now he's exhausted my supply. He's done this kind of crap with one of my other medications in the past. I wish the sucker would just take his own and leave mine be. I already told him he can just take all of that med and I'll stop it, even if my blood pressure skyrockets. He's being self-centered. I am getting furious. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My stupid sister emailed me today as if she didn't even send the last horrible message. Is she playing games with me? Or is she such an oblivious type that she doesn't understand that her behavior is torturing me? I wish she'd just get this boloney done and out of the way. I can't stand it! I can't stand it anymore!!!!!!!! She sent me photos of the land as if shoving it in my face. I don't care that she's standing there gloating. I've had enough. I wish she wouldn't email me again. I'm hating the thought of it. Hating my situation. Hating it all now. Almost hating her. I just can't stand it!