The fact that you feel certain way is valid. Your feelings aren’t an issue. Yes you might want to work with a therapist on that but feeling certain way isn’t your fault.

But when you say that he assaulted you, then it’s a problem. Even if you feel this way, it’s not what happened.

Same with claiming he wanted private time with you and was mad your rejected him, there’s zero evidence of that. The issue isn’t what you feel but rather you believing that because you feel something, it must be true.

I wonder along with others if you get preoccupied with long ago stories or create your own scenarios and stories about situations, in order to escape reality and take your focus off important things.