Thanks. I feel better - Not sure if they even kicked in yet. I was at a restaurant (With my mom and sister) - Just walking in the summer, through so many people..

I'm becoming scared of people (When I never really used to be) - It's just the more self aware I am.

I don't want to act like I'm better than any stranger, and also don't want to feel like I'm inferior/scared. It's confusing. I love all people, but people are crazy... And will stab me.

I had a thought "I should walk up to HA and ask him to stab me" (Yeah, I know.. I'm real disturbed lol.. - But they're all joke thoughts..) to face the fear of death etc.

Before I walked outside, I was like "I'm not suicidal, but I don't really care if I die".