Your post was like reading what I would have written. I had a narcissistic mother and a father who was emotionally absent. My brother could do no wrong and I felt like my parents just put up with me because they were stuck with me. I became the maid, the gardener, the burden. All my life I felt invisible and alone. It's only recently I learned about childhood emotional neglect and it all came clear. Now I just need to figure out how to move forward. I have never burdened anyone with my fears, my problems. I've always been the helper, not the helpee. How do you change 60 years of emotional habits... This forum is a start.