I am very sorry your mom didn’t do nice things. I am sure it effected you in many ways. I am far from perfect but not doing nice things for kids (within financial limits) is extreme. Very sorry

I think there is a difference between being a fan and having actual crush. I can’t imagine acting like I have a crush on a rock musician plus I’d be probably scared to run into people I know lol I’d not want people to see me intoxicated on pills and alcohol and trying to talk to a musician and being mistaken for a prostitute. I think at some point we are too old for that. Plus nowadays everyone ends up being filmed and on you tube or social media. And it’s forever there. I don’t censor myself in what I do in my free time but there are some limitations.

I don’t care what kind of fascination I have with rock star (if I had one) it’s not worth it for me. My friend who’s obsessed with Bon Jovi is just going to concerts. Not doing anything risky. That’s why I thought it’s unusual the way you go about it.