Did I understand correctly that you are asking about my passions?

If yes, unfortunatelly, I must say that I can't. I have the problems I wrote about and when it comes to my passions, there are also severe complications.
There are probably two things I love. One is more abstract, but I have no loved ones, so I cannot do that.
The other one is rather specific, I love to do that, it is a great part of my life. However, recently, health conditions are making it impossible to do...
These are some of the things that got messed up in last four months.

I tried to find some other activity which I'd love, but nothing caught my attention