You are right. Music is my passion, an irreplacable part of my life. Unfortunatelly, when I thought of writing music as an alternative (because I've tried it in the past), I found out that the old school way is mine. I need to have an instrument in my hand to come up with something (and also huge motivation which I haven't had for two years and even then, it ended up really bad). As for Megadeth, I sometimes listen to them, but I'm not really their fan.

I really like what I study. Well, I like what I study, I hate how I have to study that because I have the feeling that my knowledge and skills don't matter, only my mistakes do (that's not only my opinion). There hasn't been any result which would reflect my effort and what I've learned so far.

To be honest, I don't have any ideas for solutions now. Actually, that's why I'm writing here (and also because I have no one who would help/support me). As I've already mentioned, my various efforts have never led to anything good.