@Open Eyes - id admit to anything that i did and take ownership of it, but this i did not do.

I love my wife and i took my commitment to her, God and our marriage dead seriously. There was zero temptation there.

Even if i wasn't married, ive never been attracted to Caucasian women. Not at all. My wife is a kind of Salma Hayek-esque look-alike and even to this day, i haven't seen a more beautiful, exotic woman than her. I was 100% totally smitten by everything about her, so there was nothing i could get - even physically - anywhere else and i stayed 4 years celibate hoping things would come back around.