I feel this. My manic episodes are ALWAYS followed by massive amounts of guilt and shame. Everyone always says: learn to forgive yourself and the guilt and shame won’t be as bad or you won’t hang on to it as long. But i dunno how to kick start that. It seems overwhelming and consuming at times. I don’t know how to forgive myself when I just focus on how awful I was or embarrassing or hurtful. I’m still feeling guilt and shame over something I did while manic over a year ago. I hope we both can find ways to cope better so we both can heal faster.