You think I don't understand? I understand more than you think I do. And are you going to base your future life on these few women? Maybe you're hanging out with the wrong people. Have you ever thought of that? My heart has been broken. In fact, as recent of about a week ago. It hurt, it hurt like hell and it still hurts. I know heartbreak well. But I refuse to let him or his distortion of what happened and his mean and humiliating words win. I WILL WIN. It's a matter of choice guy. Either be happy with the way your life is now, as you are clearly not, or do something positive and constructive about it, like I am. I've already suggested to you before that therapy can go a long way to change the way you think about things, to change your negative distorted thoughts that are so very real to you right now, to help you understand why things happen the way they do. But I don't see you doing anything positive to change and improve your future. I refuse to stay stagnant in this misery and depression. I want a better life for myself and I'm going to get it. It's a choice guy, it's not a fact, that's only distorted negative thinking that you can change with therapy. Either you want to get better or you don't. The ball is in your court and it's totally up to you on what you're going to do with it. Are you going to let the ball drop and stay where you are or are you going to throw it at your past and do something constructive and positive about your future??? It's a choice, NOT a fact.