It helped. But I could only meditate for 5 minutes, too sedated.

I talked to JunkDNA, and she shared Radiohead songs.

I explained.. How I need millions of more reincarnations, and I'm okay with that..

Except that I've got a glimpse of divine insight past few year (More than most) - Maybe cuz I've had so much time to think, idk.

But this one life? It happens to all, then we go back into the abyss. Hopefully it's a good place. But I don't care about pain anymore. Maybe it's my nihilism.