I got YouTube premium some time ago, and it's definitely worth it. It's ad free videos and music. A little pricey but if you use YouTube a lot, it makes a big difference.

It looks like my anxiety is slowly coming back. Every day it's a little more than the previous day. I'm listening to nice music and using my coping skills but it seems to be an uphill battle.

My depression is slowly getting worse again too. I notice little changes in how I'm thinking and know it's the depression distorting my thoughts.

I'm thinking it's the effect of the ketamine wearing off. I have a follow-up with the ketamine clinic in a couple of weeks. They'll tell me if it's worth me going on my own for ketamine infusions. They're pricey, around 400 a session.