That's what my T calls it. So what do I DO about it?

I hate my reproductive organs. I have never felt that they "belong" to me, and I've wanted them gone ever since I found out I had them. Y'know - somewhere around fifth grade when they start the whole sex ed thing. I found out what was inside me and what was going to happen to me for the rest of my life and I FREAKED!!! I still have a rough time when it's "that time of the month". Really rough...And never mind how I feel about pregnancy or babies or any of that gross, parasitic stuff...

So my T calls it a "fixed delusion". The good news is that it's a very narrow, focused issue. The bad news is that it's very strong and part of "everyday life". I'm not suffering from any other significant gender issues.

I took the Depo shot for almost a decade, and that was awesome. No periods, no pregnancy - perfect!!! Until they found out it was draining calcium from my bones and they made me stop taking it. I was REALLY lucky that I was able to find a doctor who was willing to tie my tubes (at age 34). But I haven't been able to talk them into doing a hysterectomy for me.

They keep telling me that nothing's wrong. I'm healthy. But I'm NOT. I want those darned foreign bodies OUT of my body! I don't know what to do. My periods keep coming every single month and I don't know how much longer I can handle this. I take anti-psychotics as it is, but they have no effect on this. I KNOW it's not the way the rest of the world thinks things are, but it's absolutely real to me!

Any suggestions?