Thank you, @Molinit. I went to a DA support group today and when it was my turn to share, I spoke about my poor work choices over the years and how that's tied to my relationship with debt and money.

I think the two (taking jobs beneath my skill level) and my dysfunctional relationship with money are connected in an internal way; fear of underearning and overspending; never having enough money; feeling worthless for not carving out a career for myself in my 20s or 30s but staying stuck on the hamster wheel of underearning because I undervalue myself (or did undervalue myself -- now I value myself).

That's the part I can't reconcile with; not making better career related choices with jobs and just taking whatever job to get by. That's how I got myself here and why I'm constantly dealing with these types of people as a temp, instead of as someone with a full-time work status.

If I can't achieve a full-time job, I can't get away from these types of people or these types of toxic work environments that are especially toxic to people like me, who are in a "temporary" space mentally and physically at the same time. It's all very Meta.