Hi! Hope you’re feeling a little more confident.

I think it’s your mind here the one that is playing bad games with you. I do understand you. I sometimes thought not that others might think that I was faking my mental illness but it was me who questioned such a thing myself.
I talked to my psych about it and I received her validation and we made a cognitive exercise to discuss this fact.
We are sometimes so hard on ourselves. And if you’re bpd, I think, from what I read, that these kinds of doubts seem quite frequent because of the weak sense of self.

I don’t know you but I would bet you’re not faking. There are ups and downs and you will probably have to be alert for these posible downs.

The thing is as mental illness can’t be measure or proven with material proofs but I’m sure your relatives noticed when you were low and how much you suffered. Did you have a clues as to why would it be different? Why do they could thinking such a thing? If it were your grandma or one of the other relatives the ones who suffers from mental illness? Would you be happy that they are finding some kind of recovery? What would you think about?
Some questions for you.

Congratulations for you working on therapy, for feeling better and be giving steps forwards.

I’d wish I could be of better help and knew exactly the answer. But, for now..,it’s all I can come out with.

Stay here with us, so you could share these worries and with luck, we will able to give you some insight.