The problem with what you just stated along with what you have shared is that which you deemed as your home was not. Instead it’s in your wife’s name and she sees it as hers. And she doesn’t cuddle with you, that’s an illusion. Instead she is cold and distant in her own world using you to pay bills on HER home.

Can you see this reality? You miss the illusion.

You have said how you saw things as joint/together owned. Well, that’s not how your wife sees it.