They make me sick I've been anxious about this appointment. I get dropped off at this massive hospital by my friend bless her .... try to find my way round, all the time wanting to cry because i am on my own and feeling a bit vulnerable. I find reception, get told to sit down. My hubby came and i just burst into tears i'd worked myself up so much in front of a waiting room full of people......my appointment is an hour late .... i go in his room, he tells me i should have rec'd a scan appointment .... i told him i had to call the hospital to find out when my appointment was cos noone had written to me. On the phone they said i should have a scan today also ..... i was in his room 2 minutes .... he booked a scan and an appointment for 5 days before we go on holiday. I told him i suffer with anxiety and i could have done without this as it was a complete waste of time. He says 'well we needed to check the pain kevels.' Geeeze if i was in the pain i was in before i would have been rushed in again .... the nurse told me it had been an error in the system and booked it while i was there for next time ..... when i told him i suffered from anxiety and had worked myself up, he just said 'we'll see you in a month'.

i could have slapped his face so i get out of his room, burst out crying again and told the nurse i dont want to see him again. Next time i have to ask for his registra.

i am so angry and frustrated, i still don't know wether i need surgery and now if i do may have to cancel my holiday down at Tonys parents by the sea.

rant over Jin

needed to spill