I'm waiting for the freezer repair dude to get here, I'm off work today, my intention was to spend a few hours writing using some of the prompts in the tarot for writers book, but I'm coming up blank. So frustrating. I don't want to write sad I miss you I miss us stuff. Mainly because I'm the one who left so I don't deserve to, especially knowing that other people don't have the option to come back because their t's unfairly and horribly rudely left them. I have no right to feel sad!! None! All it would take is a phone call and I could be back seeing you weekly and I know this. But damn it, I just can't do it. Maybe I should just let myself write the sad ********. Get it out of my system. Maybe find some clearer answers as to why I can't make that phone call. In the mean time I'm going to go weave in the ends of my latest afghan so I can get it in the mail to my sister, and then be ready to start my next project.