For people who do not believe in the afterlife, it would have no meaning is somebody suggests that you can lose your place in heaven ...

For me who believe in God it is a catastrophe. I have done so many of the things that the person meant is sinful (even before I was old enough to remember) that if this was the truth, there would be no hope for me.

I talked to a friend and together we saw that this was nonsense. This was about a person who was very finicky. It was not about me.

I need to reflect about it because it sat me out of balance. I am not a person who usually am afraid of God. Now I have blamed myself because I have become depressed and forgot all about my CBT tools. I have started to understand that this was nothing I could have foreseen and built a proper defense against.

It is good to see that what happened was not among normal triggers. Now that I see that, it is more easy to forgive myself and go on with my life in a slow tact. To move is always draining.

Sorry for ranting, but this knocked me out for a while.

By the way, I respect that people have whatever religion they want to have or if they don't want to have a religion at all. If we are to live well in this world with so much differences between people, we need to respect each other and the choices each one has decided for themself with regard to a higher power (or no higher power)!