You're very smart BB! You're just a little anxious, but can overcome anything =]

I had a very bad day today. My mom wanted to bring me to the ER, but I said "No.. They'll put me on clozapine". So I avoided that..

I just want to inject codeine (Sorry AtypicalDisaster).

But I feel better.. It was about an African immigrant asking me questions (About having only a part time job) - He laughed at me texting (To a friend about what to say to him - Even though there was nothing to do) and he said "Idk if your mom gives you money or what" - And I told him.. About the schiz.. and my moms ex (Which had nothing to do with it really), so now I feel pathetic.

But I kept saying that life isn't real, an illusion (To my mom).. and I don't like working there. I'll find another job though (Cuz I worked there for 3 years - Too long.. Idk). If things go well, I won't leave (I guess). He was being nosey (But I understand that now, cuz I was putting up walls.. and not giving him any information).