I just had a realization about why i've never felt 'good enough' for my Mom. I remembered something she told me when I was pregnant with my son - she mentioned how lucky I was to be having a child because I wanted to. Because when she got pregnant with me it was because she thought she had to because that's what all her married friends were doing, starting families. So. Because she didn't get pregnant with me because she wanted me, it's just natural that i'd never be good enough. Yeesh. Why did she have to tell me that? It has never left my brain.