Well, summer has been over for me for a month now and it's been really hard for me to get into a "proper" routine (just like before we had guests). ugh! it sucks! it's depressing!

but I will keep trying. before I got sick last week (stomachaches for like 3 straight days), I had gotten into a proper exercise routine. i need to get back into it again now.
um,

oh, my surgery has actually been cancelled. turns out my primary doctor was concerned about recovery for me, since I'm on a high dose aspirin regiment and can't go off it for even a day...well, the going off it was the typical protocol for the week before surgery, but even if i could keep taking it, it could interfere with recovery meds or with me bleeding too much and not healing properly. scary stuff! so yeah, it's not worth the risk.

i'm getting ignored again on socials, but thankfully, not completely. I still have a few folks that take care of me. and this isn't to say that people aren't nice enough to me when i seek them out. it's just that people are mostly so consumed with their own selves, they don't have time to care about me or my needs. sigh

and I had a website where I could watch old television shows, but tonight, it doesn't want to work. so i don't have a fun, relaxing thing to do tonight...only chores. (always chores ugh)