The heatwave started in earnest today so i stayed inside all day hiding from it. I ordered groceries and it was a regular order -- i'm up to all my old tricks. I'm surprised, i thought the health scare i had at the end of July would have finally knocked some sense into me, but apparently not. I've read that people who are isolated with poor social supports tend to have trouble changing unhealthy behaviors. I guess it's true for me.

I feel down, but i remind myself that there are people worse off than me, just as there are people better off. I have many things to be grateful for. If my life is less than i want, it's certainly better than it's been in the past. I have my peace, leisure, and privacy to endure my depression in. I can cope in relative comfort.