I kind of keep hoping you might message me today and say that you have time to talk. At the same time, I don't think you are going to do that, so maybe it's a fantasy.

I do and don't understand.

And if you were ever able to see me again, I wouldn't trust you the same. I don't want to say never because maybe I'm wrong and maybe the connection we made is deeper than what I think it is. I just don't seem me trusting or being able to believe that we have the time we need/want to get to things. And without that belief, I'm not sure I can let the parts be themselves.

I am not pleased with yesterday's cancellation.