My biggest fear at work is that the principal will send me off for an external examination by a psychiatrist to assess my fitness to teach. I don’t have much personal leave left so I won’t get paid. It’s making me super paranoid about her. I’m trying to banish the thought that she’s out to get me. I remember asking my pdoc once how do I know if I’m starting to get psychotic. He said if I find myself getting paranoid and suspicious of people it’s one of my early signs.

In 2008 I was undiagnosed and unmedicated and that’s what happened to me at my old school.