Thanks.. And..

The intellectual dark web.. I spent years there..

My life isn't traditional. I know secrets.

I will try to live, but I don't know enough. So I don't want people at work to talk to me (Cuz they will never understand what I went through - Of course, they went through things too), until I gather up enough information.. I have to catch up...

But if I am to talk to genius autist gf, and she says "You're one of two people that I could ever talk about *certain philosophical thoughts* with", that means something..

And the autist, dealer.. He spent 6k a month on cocaine (And almost ruined his business - I tried to help) - And he talked to me.. To understand how I was so positive, while explaining all the dark things that happened..

So many people have let me down though - No one's perfect.. I am the most imperfect... Non-Developed frontal lobe, destroyed my life. Abilify.

Anyways, I'll be ok. Just when people talk to me, I am so deep into my own reality.. trying to make sense of things - And they are not mind scrambled, just living life.. My mind has been stretched, distorted, broken apart, and put back together (The wrong way).. Nothing will ever be the same. And I have to live with that. Lol.