still human,

Not knowing the extent of what happened aside- it is never your fault if someone else chooses to use violence against you. I am so sorry that happened to you. I definitely agree with CANDC- do something to comfort yourself in this moment. Anything that you can do to make you feel better physically and emotionally. And definitely talk to someone. If you don't have someone, maybe a support line while you look for someone to talk to? I wish I could offer you more.

Red