Why does everyone keep telling me that it's normal and natural and that I HAVE to be OK with it? If it's my delusion, why do I have to change it?
Doesn't anyone care how I feel about it?

Not you guys. Just anybody. I try to talk to people and they all just tell me that it's OK, periods are normal, You're fine. I'm NOT fine - I'm bleeding uncontrollably and I can't stop it! If I hadn't gotten fixed, I could have someThing growing inside me, feeding off my body. Never mind all the trauma from the dammd abortions. That's disgusting! It can't be natural. Get it out of me...

They tell me I have to keep my ovaries so that my bones can recover from the Depo shot. And they tell me that I can't have a hysterectomy because I'm perfectly healthy. C'mon, guys - I'm using it about as much as I'm using my appendix.

I'm freaking out. I'm already freaking out. It's all so DISGUSTING. I need to talk about it, but I can't because it's too horrific to even consider...
*whimper*
never mind...