Doing good..

I want to read books.. I think that's the best way of learning (Other than podcasts). So I'll try and do that tomorrow..

The problem is my heart.. I fear it. I'm trying to make sense of infinity (Within my lifetime) as fast as I can, soon - Before I can change without knowing as much as I could if I didn't...

Idk why I keep getting hits of overthinking. Sometimes situations can interfere badly (Like other people). I need to balance myself.

I don't fully have faith - I could relax, and let the flames approach me and burn to death, desperately clinging to highs and bad energies. Or I could give up - And that doesn't do any good.

Manifesting positive energies (Cuz of neuroplasticity), gives momentum - Making people more resilient to the opposite forces (Anything mental, physical, spiritual etc), to go against the small energies that would have been trailing along with the spirit (Weighing us down, causing bad perceptions/experiences - Even in a neuroscience/chemical imbalance way).

- It's the same as the forces of gravity (A big MASS - Singularity.. Black hole, among infinite other black holes - Or even just thinking about the earth, and getting out of orbit) + Every other forces of the universe, popping in and out of existence with time - Just moving pictures, memories - Becoming real (Somewhere else).

The only thing I don't understand is "why?" - Are we supposed to try? - When nothing exists/everything exists.. Every single divine point in existence, is me (And everything else), and also THINGS that can't comprehend things (Of which also can't comprehend OTHER - In a loop).

So everyone's full of ****, but we are all valid (0 and 1). We just exist. People have to live to their own best standards (Before judging the world) - And those two are polar opposites of each other, so they are harmonized, in synchronicity. They work together.

It's my choice, it's everyone else's choice too. What I do? Hopefully God has a plan (Instead of me doing all of the right things, and the objective world still stays the same - But that's the thing about this reality.. Is that we're in a certain dimension of the infinite multiverse/God, that has made sense of itself, and can work based on experimentation and mimicking or evidence).

Have faith - But be mindful.