I am having fun with men until I meet the guy I will date more seriously. Jay didn’t want anything more so it ended. It came to a point where I did want more. I had hoped that perhaps he would have developed feelings for me and would want more too. But yes what he said initially to me remained to be the case. So what. It was only seven weeks. I’m over it now. I saw him the other night with his new girl and it didn’t bother me. I’m moving on. And this new guy has trauma right now, yes, and he’s unavailable but he is available for fun. So be it. I’ll see how things unfold. I’m being patient and am giving it time. I do want to get to know him better and spend a little time with him.

I am getting tired of having to justify and explain my behavior and choices. I’m doing whatever i want to do. I feel empowered. I’m not unhappy. I’m not miserable. I’m pretty happy in fact.