It’s hard to believe but even when I never belong to a group and I miss that possibility, I’m at the same time pretty much an independent person. I guess it’s because I’m used to it. Very different to your case.
Up this point in my life it’s more like a challenge. To see myself if I can fit in now that I’m more confident than before.
Past experiences didn’t work and I think it was more because of my psychological issues. I was always worried because of my anxiety and insecurities. I wasn’t even able to eat in public. This is how bad it was.
And when I had the chance to participate in a group (at work, one friend’s group or something like that) even when I saw they admitted myself, the more we interact, the more I tried to avoid and began to ask myself questions about being able to be once more.
People normally appreciate me and I don’t have anything bad to tell about them. The problem is or I want to think, was. The closer, the more I pushed away.