I’m a big time people pleaser and I can be codependent. I’ve been working real hard on that. Everybody’s needs always came before my own. The people in my life are terming me difficult and are besides themselves with shock at some of my changes. I haven’t done anything wrong but I sure feel guilty saying no and sticking up for myself. One family member even suggested I needed a medication change. It’s half funny and half sad. I’m still going to work on being my authentic self and see who shows up. I like the woman I’m getting to know without the facades or need to prove herself.

The medication seems to be working right now. I feel happy and hopeful.

I love to travel but am on a strict budget. I did find out that Bali, Thailand and one other country that’s name escapes me now are beautiful to visit and can be done on a shoestring budget. You can rent a house for next to nothing for a month in some of these places. I’m saving up my money and hope to make a trip to one in the not so distant future. I think a month thousands of miles away from my history and anything to do with it would be perfect. A new perspective.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day