I didn't believe this at first, but yeah, I still have a way more to go before I heal from PTSD. Or maybe this is it. I'm not toxic anymore, I no longer go in fight mode, but fear still plays a key factor in my life. I fear social interactions. So my flight response is triggered, it's a hair trigger too. I try and try to throw myself into the common area to clean and what not, but I'm too scared. I've been throwing out the trash and stuff, but I don't know, I can't keep this up living here without doing chores. Today I emailed a couple new places to live where I wouldn't live with a group. I hope it works out. Rent would be cheaper and it would be way closer to work.

I'm just taken back by how much I fear human interaction in a group living situation. The PTSD with the SZ is strangling me.