Hello, guy. Hope you are feeling a little better in mood.
The problem with your hand is apart from mobility, pain? Let’s see what the check and other tests say. Let’s see what the doctors say and you could start the treatment as soon as possible.

I hear in what you say at being no very lucky so far with friends and girls.
There are guys and girls, people in general, who find very easy to attract people.
I’m not one of these people, of course. And from what you say to me, you also find it difficult.
Again, I can’t be of much help since you already know about my social anxiety so you can guess my social net is extremely reduced. I even isolated myself at 17, for 7 years at home. You can figure how much it affected my social skills.
So, as I can’t help you in this way, I was thinking about your self-esteem and confidence. Working on that made a big different for me in relation to dare to go out of my comfort zone. But, I would bet you don’t have problems with self-esteem from what I’ve read. Am I right?
Another question (not need to reply. Privacy respect over everything). Have you lived many experiences of rejection from girls?
I say because maybe we are doing a big deal of one experience that meant a lot for you.

Having these two friends even when they don’t have much time to share is a treasure, nonetheless. Maybe, you only had little opportunities. It’s not easy to find the right people for you straight away.