Sorry for your loss.

Just to add to my answers because I don't remember what all I have written in othere threads.

You are right, I have no problem with my confidence and self-esteem.
I have experienced more stories including rejection, not just one. It's just that the most recent one struck me hard.
With those two friends, one is also mentioned one line above. But that doesn't matter in this context. The thing is, we have no opportunities to meet because she lives somewhere else (we study in the same town) and her online communication is not frequent. About the other one, he lives where I do, but since I study abroad, I'm home only during weekends and I need to study then. Also, he dislikes to chat online. So you can imagine that sharing some of my thoughs, communication or going to events is very difficult as I don't know when to expect a response from either of them.