I just spent the weekend in my pjs, doing nothing. Not checking the mail or doing the most basic self care, but I feel fine, just lazy. Last night I got great sleep. I hadn’t taken a gabapentin for two days but took one last night, oh, it was wonderful. I slept great and had wonderful dreams. And this morning after my chai I took a shower got dressed but can’t get myself to go to mahjong. I’m just not feeling it. And don’t feel like pushing myself. I do need to go get salads and or something for supper. My noon meal that came today was a heavy one, so just a salad for supper would be fine. Last night I had frozen carrots as there’s nothing in the fridge

. guess I’m a bit depressed as it seems life is just a hamster wheel and I want off. I’m tempted to take the money and travel. But eh, my back prevents me from walking and traveling requires walking. I’d love to see the ancient ruins and sites in the UK. Much walking required! Don’t think a walker would work in those places.

I think now that I should have pushed myself. Can’t expect meds to be magic. Gotta push myself too.