Hello, I'm a 28 yr old female with BPII. I was diagnosed ~3 years ago. My husband and I had some big changes come up about 2 months ago - he got a new job which requires some travel (big change for us) and I found out I was pregnant. Given we weren't trying, this was a surprise but we were so excited. As you can expect from the Title, we found out that I was going to miscarry. I waited a week to see if it would happen naturally, however it didn't and required surgery to resolve. This has cost us a lot of money, and on top of that I lost my job after I became so depressed that I went on a bender (drinking myself drunk while my husband was out of town). In the meantime, I got a new job but I'm still depressed at home. Now I'm incredibly embarrassed because I was established at my last position and my sudden departure had an impact on a lot of children and families who I worked with. I was clearly in the wrong (I no-call/no-showed to work) so I understand why they fired me, but I just can't believe I've found myself in this situation. I truly believe that this all stemmed from the miscarriage. It literally breaks my heart to think about it. It was our first pregnancy. I just feel like we lost something we'll never get back in this life time and I'm a different person now. 3 months ago I thought life couldn't get any better and then it crashed in a way that I couldn't have imagined. I have faith in God and know that we'll be okay but I also hope to be in a happier mental space soon.