This is all new and a bit overwhelming to me. I've been having issues my whole life with everything I have reading about BPD. Somehow, I was able to exist in a relationship for a few decades with our compatible trauma fitting together. My partner is growing and change, I am not. A light has been cast on my behavior and on my thought processes. It is painful to see.

As hard as this is, I wish I would have been made aware of this earlier in life. I have burned so many bridges and ruined so many relationships and never realized it was me.

Now, I am seeing a psychiatrist and looking for support groups. It is very frustrating and painful to get this far along and have the entire game change knowing that you hurt people along the way.


Needed a place to vent. Thanks.