Thanks everyone. I did go inpatient and I was there for quite some time (42 days to be exact). I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and BPD and was referred to a PHP that I start in a couple days. Put on some meds. I see my therapist and new psychiatrist today. They don't want me going back to work for a couple weeks which is making me so upset I'm crying. I might sneak in the back just to hang out with the dogs

-Ash