I’ve had a bad time with anxiety and panic today. Up until now I’ve been curled up in a terrified ball on the couch. I’ve pulled out my bag of tricks and still remain ham stringed with fear. At times like these I’m even terrified to leave the house but I’m determined to do so tonight. I’m going to shower, gussy myself up, go eat at church and go to a grief class led by a psychologist.

I missed the first class due to migraine and the leader called to check on me and we talked for a solid hour. She is so genuine, warm and easy to talk to. She said it was a small group with really sweet ladies eager to meet me. What a blessing and an opportunity.

I’ve told all my medical professionals that I’d take severe depression every day of the year over anxiety. I was on an extremely high level of benzodiazepines and asked to decrease. Could be part of the problem. I used to self medicate with Tylenol PM. It did help but was quite dangerous. Glad I worked through that.

I hope everyone has a peaceful evening.