I'm shaking
The flashbacks... the nightmares... hallucinations of people who abused me everywhere I look right now. Don't feel grounded, I don't feel like I'm here. I feel like I'm there again.
I'm freaking out... all the yelling, I can see it in my head again too... I just want it all to go away. I can see my dad yelling at me, I can see my half-brother taunting me, telling me how I deserved it, making me see it in my head

Scared to sleep... nightmares... so scared...
Alone... with the memories of them...
So much I can't say...
Scared so bad.
I need someone here to tell me it's in the past.
But no, I'm alone