IOP did not go well today. I've slept about 15 hours over the past 5 days and they ask about sleep in check-in and the guy that runs it was concerned enough that he had me call him when I got home to make sure I got home safely (it's a long drive that involves a lot of intersections and some interstate driving). I'm having mad cravings right now just because I want to knock myself tf out. I'm on a shyt ton of medication but it ain't doing anything on this little sleep. I'm hallucinating and my emotions are all over the place. I'm having those "demons are twisting my thoughts" and "other people are speaking in code" thoughts again too. I'm tempted to taper myself off all my meds. For all I know one or more of them is/are causing my insomnia. They aren't helping, that's for sure.