Here's what happened this morning (At work) - But overall, i handled it very well (IMO), and I consider today to be a very good day;

- "I'm going to tell my coworker to go **** him self and then I'll quit". - I told the coworker to not ask anymore questions (Only work related), I said "I have nothing against this family" (At the restaurant) - And they begged me to stay. I was going to tell him to go F himself lol "Don't be sad" - Do I seem sad? Idk.."

- "I'm feeling apathetic now. I don't care about anything. And I like it this way. He asked me if I worked at the other job, as soon as I walked in - And "What do you even do all day" (I remember when a friend asked me that when I was a kid?) - I'm done with this particular life. Sorry. It could get better. I'm too tired, tried too hard, did what I could ^-; Too much has happened to me. Especially recently.. Like I was trying to recover... It's impossible for any normal person to recover from the philosophical thoughts that I've been having. No one knows wtf I'm talking about when I say that nothing is actually real. And my mom.. She causes a lot of my anxiety - Just a complete control freak. It's cuz she ate a weed edible in her 20s. It's really sad to see her like this.. Why can't she just be chill and relax, but me too now.. I suppose it's okay. What do I even do all day.. idfk.. give me a break. What does everyone else do? What do animals do? What's the point of the economy? People just steal cars, shoot each other, pray to statues.. and om mantras while meditating - Go to any dimension, and there will be a stupid reality, waiting.. All vibrations, energy, frequency - Right? The sound of the rain, a cliff falling into the ocean.. It makes a sound.. What is with people caring about what others do with their lives, they want money.. And to drive an expensive sports car - "I'm the big ****! I made it in this life! I have sex and importance!" (While a stroke could happen any time, like a train passing by.. Mad house insanity - Window by window, reflecting nonsense in each one.. Nothing, but a hammer hitting a nail, in the coffin of this existence, floating in the river, to destinations of no central nervous system, just awareness - Forever, morphing in patterns, changing..)".

- "I was joking about my mom being a control freak - It was a joke! Christ.. I'll get better! I am 1% INFP (Google that) male - No one.. Has been this sensitive to every thing! And the planet, in space.. Flying.. Anyways, things will get better. If people leave me alone, and stop asking judgemental, stupid, narcissistic questions".

INFP Personality Type: The Mediator

My sister said;

"(To me), You can’t let other people who have no business wasting your energy get in your head so much. You are so much more than this person is making you feel. You know exactly who you are, and you have lots of interests and that’s not something that you need to prove or justify to someone you work with. But stay calm.. it’s okay, coworkers suck most of time. Just brush it off. I love you❤️"